naps

Yesterday I needed to study accounting but was also tired so instead of studying and falling asleep the whole time, I took a nap from 9:30-10:30 figuring I could study afterwards, then after I studied I would still be able to get back to sleep since one hour wouldn't make up for the sleep I've missed. Apparently that only happens when you actually want to go out and do something. I couldn't go back to sleep until 4 with having to wake up at 7 at the latest so that pissed me off. I swear, if I took an hour nap and then wanted to go out and hang out with friends I'd be too tired so I hate my fucking retarded body.

In case you think I'm just going nuts again about being pissed at my body, you have no idea of my history. I have just about every single bullshit gene in my family. I've had to have dental surgery for a missing tooth that the closest relative that had that gene is my grandfather. So now I have a fake tooth which possibly will have to have surgery again every 20 years. Apparently I have a gene where my feet sweat a lot. Dry scalp. And of course the kicker is the Diabetes which the closest member of my family to have it I believe is my grandfather's nephew or I don't even know who exactly but it sure as hell isn't a close family member. Every piece of shit gene in my family has been deposited in my body while my sister does not have any problems, she doesn't even need glasses. I've have compared my situation to the movie "Twins" or at least I believe that was the name of it. The one with Danny Divito and Arnold Schwartzenegar as twins and of course divito's character was given all the genes that arnold's sort of perfect physical human character didn't use.

Anyway, that was just to explain that I have legitimate reasons to hate my body in case everyone was thinking I was overexaggurating.

Accounting test in 2 days, if I fail this I'm sure I will be in deep shit and will never hear the end of it from my mom, I wouldn't doubt it if she said I wouldn't be allowed to live in the appartment because obviously I'm a slacker with a 3.6 GPA and she probably wouldn't care about screwing cody and steve over.

The Unforgiven and The Unforgiven II by Metallica are amazing songs and I definately relate to them. I will most likely comment on indie music next post. I'm not a huge music person but I feel I must express my views on it.